literally been doing nothing but reading & notes after work and !! i’m tired !!!!!! meditating beforehand helped a lottt though and it was my first time actually sitting down and trying it out. I think I’ll try to do that after work in my car.
i’m motivating myself to pull through so I can play more piano and video games tonight since I have a bit more time~
please make sure that wherever you’re at in life, you don’t treat it like a transitory period. don’t waste your college years wishing to already be graduated & have a job. don’t waste your single years wishing for someone to be in love with. if/when those things come, they will come in due time and they will be good. but there is nothing like looking back and feeling empty because you wasted literal years ignoring what you had because you were hoping for something better. while it’s important to better yourself and reach for your goals, don’t neglect the present because that’s where you are now and it’s your now that determines your future.
my mental health took a dip this week BUT i feel like I handled it so much better than usual (except one night but I need to forgive myself for not always making 100% progress)
I know where my mistakes are in enabling bad coping practices and where things went wrong, so I feel oddly positive after a meh week. Perhaps its because I got to just wind down for a few days with someone I care about, not that I needed to have someone there, but for how I was feeling it was greatly beneficial to have support by me.
Today I’m going to eat good food, buy some groceries to make more good food for the week, due some housekeeping and relax while catching up on work.
